I promised to share my tiny victories and my failures so here we are as promised. Typical – I start off strong and then burn out quick. I have to focus on my triggers.
For example, I completely lost momentum on Saturday when I slept until just before I had to wake up. I go to work a little earlier on Saturdays and my husband has off and I definitely didn’t take any of this into account when I went to bed Friday night. This decline in momentum carried through until this morning (Wednesday). By Sunday (the only day my husband and I both have off) I didn’t feel like doing anything. Monday, a day where I can typically hit reset, my husband was required to work from home as part of a test his entire company was conducting to ensure everyone had work from home capabilities if needed (thanks Corona Virus…) so instead of getting up and doing productive things on my last day before I go back to work, I did a whole lot of nothing until the afternoon when I managed to force myself out of the house to get my nails done (simply because I’d been putting it off for weeks and my nails were becoming a health hazard).
I guess if I’m being fair – getting my nails done on Monday was a TINY victory. I left the house and I did something I had been putting off.
Unfortunately, I admittedly drank too much wine on Monday night (I think I was doing a little self-loathing) and so Tuesday morning I woke up hung over and desperate for sleep, water, and greasy food (greasy food is my hangover go-to). Needless to say, it was not a healthy day for me.
This morning, I slept in again but forced myself to wake up in time to at least shower…TINY VICTORY.
So here we are, a week in, and I’ve already had some ups and downs. Normally I would just quit. In my sick brain I have already failed and have therefore proven myself unworthy of this effort.
Because I’m currently committed to expanding my comfort zone, I’m not stopping. I’m focusing on forgiving myself and being more mindful of my triggers.
Triggers for me are of course drinking too much – if I feel like garbage I’m not disciplined enough to still wake up early and be productive so I have to be mindful of this. Last night for example, I had one very small glass of wine and then I mindfully remembered earlier that morning feeling super hungover and decided not to drink anymore (even though my husband was enjoying his multiple glasses of wine, right in front of me…).
I still slept in this morning, but I didn’t feel hungover and woke up in time to at least take a shower so, overall, I would say being mindful helped me.
Things I need to keep in mind:
- Set myself up for success – eat well, get plenty of sleep, and drink water!
- Limit obstacles – put out clothes for the next day the night before (especially if they are workout clothes!)
- Don’t press snooze – when I actually follow this it’s 1 MILLION times easier for me to stay awake…just have to do it. (Thanks for the tip momma!)
- Be willing to be uncomfortable – as I work to expand my comfort zone I will have to be uncomfortable. That’s how it works. There’s no way to expand your comfort zone without making yourself uncomfortable. Definitely my main focus as I work on my morning productivity and overall health and wellness.
I will continue to be mindful of my triggers to set myself up for success and work on being okay with being uncomfortable. This is baby-steps. It takes patience with yourself and it takes some trial and error. I’m learning but it’s not going to all be better overnight and I have to be okay with that. I’m currently not really okay with that but, if I keep working on myself I will be one day. I have to believe this.
Sending lots of love to all of you who read anything I write and wishing you all the best on your own goals. Baby-steps! You got this 🙂